At the beginning of 2020, we will look at the various ways of love. This month the image is about “Young Love.”

At the beginning of 2020, we will look at the various ways of love. This month the image is about “Young Love.”


So at my work, when you are talking to someone and they are telling you about a situation that requires a whole lot of work and effort to be resolved, usually the conversation will end with:
“But this is my overtime day, so that is not going to happen.”
You feel for them. You get it. They have put in their regular work week and have added some to it. For them to go so far over the top would be ridiculous.
So it was my overtime day. It was set up perfect!

I was on my favorite floor, in one of the best locations (by the breakroom and the restroom). And there was a fan close by cause these are the 100 degree days. To top all of this off, one of the coolest supervisors was on the floor. It was going to be a chillaxing day.
Super Christian that I am, I was encouraging others. Saying this is going to be a good day. We are going to make it happen. There were high fives, fists bumps, etc.
About 30 minutes into my shift, cool supervisor came by and said, “You trained in (another department)?”
“I don’t want to do that today. This is my overtime day.”
She said “Cool. If they don’t call back, we good.”
I sent up my quick prayer. Fifteen minutes later she showed up and said I had to go.
Crap! This is my overtime day.
Needless to say I go to another department. It started out okay, but not my chillaxing day I had planned.
After lunch that job changed. It was something ten times harder than anything I had done. I worked harder than I have ever worked. My back called me names that were not polite and would probably make you blush. I sweated so hard I was soaking wet down to my underwear. This was so opposite of what I had planned.
But I learned something new about work and about me. It was hard. It was fun. It was worth it.
In this world, when we pray for peace and for God’s intervention, that is what we expect. We expect God to reign peace down on us because we are praying for it, kinda like I expected a chillaxing day. Yet it seems like the harder we pray, the more violence breaks out.
We have visualized a world in our minds that really doesn’t exist. Kinda like my chillaxing day. In order for us to have peace, everyone has to leave their chillaxing behind and go to work in another department. We are not giving up our comfort zones to meet others where they need us. I don’t believe we are there. We don’t sound like it yet. White people want black people to change. Black people want white people to change. Until we all change I think the violence is only going to get worse. We are heading for very dark days.

Until we are all broken, I don’t believe God will do anything with us. Our hearts are not contrite. We are still lost in darkness. We are still finger pointing and wanting it to be someone else’s fault. We are still mourning in different camps. Some mourn for the officers, some mourn for the victims. God is waiting for us all to mourn together.
This morning at church, Stephen Rickels reminded us that the way that God thinks and the way that man thinks are different. We often think we know what is best because of how it feels to us. God knows what is best and has a plan in motion to deliver us. It is going to be hard. We are going to sweat. It is going to be worth it because we will all do it together.

When we break sweat together we will know what our God is up to. As long as we stay in our separate camps we are doomed. He warned us about these days. It was not an accident we studied the Book of Revelation last year. We need to believe Him.
Some of us are not going to make it through this violence. Stop living your life like this doesn’t affect you. We have been a nation sheltered from this kind of violence, but we have chosen to be free of God who had politely stepped back and given us over to it. Until then I think we will find we live in a dangerous environment that we help create.
The good news is that this isn’t the end of the story. When Adam and Even sinned and separated themselves from God, He had a plan for reconciliation. You see God loves us more than we can imagine.
His plan was for Jesus to come to earth as a man, live a perfect life and be the sacrifice we needed to reconcile us with Him.

Jesus suffered death on a cross for us. He rose from the dead after three days. He promised that if you believe in Him, you will have everlasting life. You see the devil doesn’t win if you believe in Jesus.
You want to know how to stop the violence, make sure everyone around you believes in Jesus. Even if they are absent from the body, they are present with Lord. Amen. We win.
Enjoy the pond, even though it might not be yours
I was at the Duck Pond this week and was amused by the sight of the turtles. You see it is called the Duck Pond. It was designed around the ducks. There were lots of ducks there, but the turtles didn’t care.

The turtles did not have to deal with the current of the Trinity River or the other creatures that live in the river. They enjoyed the amenities of the Duck Pond with their friends. That is what we need to do. If you are a turtle, enjoy swimming in someone else’s pond. Don’t try to change the name to the Duck & Turtle Pond. Just enjoy your swim. When it is time to move on, move on.
Even birds have down time from the flock
One thing I noticed about groups of birds is that it is like an endless game of tag. They all fly to one point and before the last one gets down, the first one takes off again. It is kind of like a house with a bunch of kids, they are seldom all still at the same time.

So as long as I have been walking at this place, there is always one bird like this one. It sits in the tall bushes and people watches. Like this bird, we need to get away from our flock and see the world around us for what it is. We need moments to sit in the tall grass, dip our feet in cool water and rest.
Everyday is the opportunity to make a masterpiece
The sun is starting to rise earlier. On one hand I love it because I can actually see the world around me instead of dark blobs. On the other hand, I hate it because traffic is much thicker because other people can see the road too.

As long as the Lord paints pink morning skies, there are opportunities to be had during that day. Each day is an incredible work of art and we have the chance to make it a masterpiece.
Sometimes our enemies can’t be seen
One of the most sinister enemies in the State of Texas is the heat. We all feel we have been around long enough to manage the heat or that it is not that dangerous. But heat will sneak up on you and destroy you. You may feel tired, sleepy or weak. Manage your time in the heat and hydrate.

During the winter and spring months I could walk late in the afternoon. But as summer rears its hot head, I am making plans to walk in the cool of the mornings. Just because you don’t see your enemies, doesn’t mean they are not out there trying to destroy you. Sometimes God holds things back from you to protect you. Just like the heat, respect your enemies.
Sometimes the skies are blue and road ahead is full of obstacles
We are all on the road to somewhere and there are usually things in the way. This week I was encouraged by Muhammad Ali’s life as told by Billy Crystal in his 15 Rounds. Despite all of the obstacles, Ali continued to see himself as the Greatest. You are great too.

We are all going somewhere and your perception of the journey will determine everything about it. We need to be like the birds. Praising God for his timely provisions with songs. Everything about this life He has designed for you. He is telling you through all of the things around you. You only have to “Be still and know He is God.”
In 2015, I spent the least amount of time thinking about this area, but more time doing it. Today’s area is Mental or the things you plan, learn and visualize. It is usually one of my favorite areas until God takes over. At the beginning of each year, I create a plan and goals for the year. I determine the areas I want to learn more about and set out to do it.
I plan safe things, like trips to the museum or to take a class in lighting for still photography. God tosses me in the lake and says “Swim, I got you.” God takes me on trips I never imagined and many of them have to do with the things I fear. He makes me look the thing I fear right in the eye.
What I love about this area is I get to do new stuff. I am seldom bored or lack something to do. God teaches me to think outside the box I have drawn around myself. He is teaching me to see myself as more than a mother or daughter. More than a photographer or writer or filmmaker. As I look back over my life I see I am not staying stagnant. Life is truly an adventure.
Today’s adventure included a trip down culinary lane. For the first time, I cooked chicken fried steak. Yes, I have been a Texan all my life, but this was the first time I ever tried to cook the dish myself. I watched the Pioneer Woman do it this week. I thought it looked a little too complicated for my level of cooking. But at the grocery store today, the only thing I could find was the cubed steak…
As I work out the plan God has for my life, I enjoy watching it come clearly into focus. Make a plan. Set some goals. Yet don’t get upset if God interrupts your plans for His. After all I set off to the store to buy a brisket, but cube steak was in my future. I did a good job and there is a sense of accomplishment.
Be part of helping others grow, not only by being an example, but also by coaching. We should all continue to grow together because iron sharpens iron. If you are not helping someone become better, then you are getting in their way.
It is time to tell Fear goodbye. Walk in the adventure God has placed before you. Your future might seem uncertain, but God is in control. Dive in.
This journey toward Christmas has been very different than past journeys. I had the opportunity to reflect on this year and some really fun times with my family and friends. I got to revisit doing some things I had never done before. I got to celebrate life with the people I love.
The Lord has used my 49th year of life to stretch me in ways I have never been stretched before. I made a feature length motion picture. I have led an awesome small group of women in bible study. I got to take care of my mom and spoil her before she went to meet Jesus.
I have a lot to be thankful for. The Lord really helped me put things in perspective. If I could take all of the love the Lord has showered on me and turn it into coins I would be a billionaire. I am loved. And that is a successful life.
Forgiveness. It is one of the greatest gifts God has given to me. When I am stressed, I need an overdose of it. As I push on to accomplish the tasks on my list, sometimes things get run over or fall off.
Over the last couple of days I have tried to juggle planning family Christmas, a funeral and finishing a movie. Some things have fallen through the cracks, but I know it will all work out.
God teaches us even through our grief what a marvelous God He is. As we reflect over the past few days we are allowed to remember His goodness, His faithfulness and His sovereignty.
On these last couple of days before Christmas I am reminded of a Savior who loved us so much He came down here to be with us, and take us home when we are ready. I don’t think we can comprehend the depth of this love. I know I can’t.
But in my grief, I like to think that this feeling I am experiencing is what my Savior feels for me. That His heart aches for a time for us to be together again. An amazing love came down from heaven and I don’t think we will ever grasp it.
Peace.
In the midst of my storm, the Lord has given me peace. This year He has taught me to be where I am. Whether I am up or down, be there. Often, He has a reason for placing us in the situations we are in. I can’t say I understand, but I trust the one who made it.
Even though my heart and head conflict, being where I am helps me to appreciate the moments in life. I am appreciating spending time with my family. I have had moments with them I will remember the rest of my life.
Christmas has taken on a new meaning for me. I still love the Christmas story. It will still be my favorite time of the year. This song has been running through my head everyday.
Five days before Christmas, one of the things I am most thankful for is prayer. I have the best prayer warriors in the world. Prayer is a staple in my life. I talk to God everyday, but sometimes my need out weighs my ability to approach Him. When I can’t pray the things I need, it is great to have people in my corner.
When God shows His authority over my life, He also shows His compassion and provision. I am blessed.
Another thing I am grateful for is tradition. When my daughter was younger, I used to have a tradition where she and I would watch the Judy Garland Christmas Show during Christmas time. It was one of the few black and white shows she would watch with me.
Here is a good moment from the show.
The Lord had been preparing me for yesterday for a while. He spoke to my spirit that she was winding down. From the outside, you couldn’t tell but those of us who knew her, could see. She was no longer on the road, she was content to be at home.
One of the things I will always remember about my mom was she told me Barack Obama was going to be president before he ever received the Democratic nomination. I remember thinking this woman is crazy. America is never going to elect an African American President.
An African American woman who was raised in a segregated South got to see Barack Obama become President of the United States. She grew up riding at the back of buses and not crossing the railroad tracks after dark. She got to experience God’s faithfulness.
The Lord allowed her children to gather around her and cater to her. He allowed her grandchildren to amuse the heck out of her. He gave her above all she could imagine or desire in a family.
I almost had 50 years with her. Nothing was funnier than both of us with our readers trying to see something or her laughing at my hot flashes cause she remembered them.
She taught me a lot about life. She taught me how to laugh. She lived what a strong woman looked like.
One of her favorite singers, Nina Simone summed it up.