I knew what I wanted to be when I was 15. I knew what I wanted to be when I was 21. I knew what I wanted to be when I was 25.
None of those things were the same thing. I ended up doing those things and many more. Let me be honest. I have had a great deal of fun, but seldom have found satisfaction. Many times we do things in hope that it will satisfy us, but usually end up void. After many years of struggling and finding new things to do, I found the remedy for it all. One of the most powerful thing I learned is Psalms 32:8.
I often think about Abraham leaving his family and going with God. I am sure it was a frightening proposition to go face the unknown. Some of the places God has taken me have been cooler than anything I could imagine, and some of the places have been “What the heck?” One of the first things I learned about God was He is more interested in my character than my comfort. I mean I started to learn that if I was too comfortable, what I was doing wasn’t from God.
When God is your guide, He often takes you along the scenic route. I don’t ever remember getting anywhere quick or in my timing. I mean somethings have taken decades to get to, but He is faithful. There are also detours along the way. If you do not stay connected to God these detours will slay you. You will think God has lost his mind or doesn’t plan to do good for you. Sometimes we get in our own way, like Sarah giving her handmaid to her husband to make a child. I got in my own way so many times, God stopped telling me what was going to happen. He just led me. I learned to shut up and follow.
You have to trust Him that the path He takes you on is the best path for you. I admit there were times I would ask “What are you doing? This is crazy, God!” I have had some of the craziest jobs, but I can see how each experience has taught me more about the Creator of the Universe. Sometimes people get stuck because they have not learned what God needs them to learn. I am reminded that David spent 16 years learning how to shepherd all the crazy odd people before he became king over the entire nation. I have to remind myself that God created me and knows me well. This means He knows what I need and when I am able to learn it.
Another thing I learned about the Father is that He always puts me in a situation where I need Him. I can’t do it without Him. But the beautiful thing about this is that it will stretch you beyond your limits. You will learn about yourself and the God who created you. It will take you in new directions. He turned one of my deepest fears into something I love dearly. Only a God who knows you well can do that.
I hope you will stop faking it and focus on what seed God has placed in your heart. Allow Him to take you on an adventure that will make your life satisfying. As my sister says, You only have a few moments left on earth, use them on your mission. Stop wasting time trying to buy a new home, car or vacation. Connect with your purpose for life and that will be more than you can even imagine. Trust the Lord with all your heart and don’t lean on your own understanding. (Proverbs 3:5)